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Thoughts in Verse
BY
ELIZABETH NUTTALL HOPKINS
With a Preface by
PROFESSOR WILLIAM CLARK, D.C.L., LL.D.
of Trinity University, Toronto
TORONTO
WILLIAM BRIGGS
1906
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Entered according to Act of the Parliament of Canada, in the year one thousand nine hundred and six, by J. CASTELL HOPKINS, at the Department of Agriculture. [unnumbered page]
Dedicated
to
My Mother
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PREFACE
THIS little volume needs no commendation from an outsider. It will speak for itself to those who have ears to hear and hearts to feel. It will answer to the first demand of poetry by giving pleasure; but, beyond this, it will prove a true interpreter of nature and of human experience. We shall not regret the moments spent in its perusal.
WILLIAM CLARK.
TRINITY COLLEGE,
Xmas, 1905. [unnumbered page]
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CONTENTS
PAGE |
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THE ANGEL OF SLEEP |
9 |
OF LOVE |
10 |
FAME |
11 |
MY DREAM |
12 |
AT NIGHT |
13 |
AN HOUR OF PEACE |
15 |
A REVERIE |
16 |
THE SONG OF NIGHT |
17 |
THE FUTURE |
18 |
TELL ME, O NIGHT |
20 |
MEMORY |
22 |
LEAVES |
23 |
A GIFT |
25 |
EARTH’S MYSTERIES |
26 |
THE TEMPTER |
27 |
THE PASSING OF THE YEAR |
30 |
UNANSWERED |
32 |
A VICTORY |
34 |
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LOVE DIVINE |
36 |
THE SUICIDE’S PLEA |
37 |
WHEREFORE |
38 |
THE ROLL OF YEARS |
40 |
REST |
41 |
THE DAY’S A DREAM |
42 |
REVERIE |
43 |
AN ECHO FROM THE PAST |
44 |
RECOMPENSE |
45 |
A SEA SONG |
46 |
FOREVER |
48 |
A SONG OF THE SEA |
49 |
EVERALD |
51 |
SLEEP ON |
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Thoughts in Verse
THE ANGEL OF SLEEP.
O ANGEL of Sleep, with the fair white wings, Come to me now; Tenderly loosen the tired heart-strings, Breathe on my brow. Lift up, I pray you, the burden of care, Just for one night; Speed the long hours with pain that they bear On to the light. ‘Neath thy kind dream-wings I fain would repose, There to find rest, While gladly and softly my eyelids now close, By thy lips pressed. Out to the peace of the bygone days My soul shall flee, Lightly treading the mystic ways That used to be. [page 9]
OF LOVE.
OH! Love is the dream of a summer’s night, That fades not away at the morning’s light, But lingers and lives in the darkest hours, And scatters abroad its fadeless flowers On Life’s tossed sea. Oh! Love is the emblem of youth and age, But it has its own great war to wage Against the demons of doubt and despair, And the bended bows of sorrow and care That still must be. The wars are bitter, the wars are long, And often is heard the wild death-song Of a vanquished hope, as it flees away Into the dusk of the endless day Of “Might-Have-Been.” But the joy that lives in a love-lit soul Is itself a part of which heaven is whole, And life seems fairer, the path more bright, While stars of grace, once far from sight, Are clearly seen. [page 10]
FAME.
LIKE some great shield of purest, glittering gold Held up against the western sunset sky, To catch the roseate beauty ere it passes by, Loath to let the sun-jewels leave its eager hold, It throws the withering roses to the dead day, icy cold,— So glory is: men seize the shield and die With one triumphant smile and one deep sigh, Killed by the radiance of God’s wealth untold. . . . . . . . . . . And lying dead, with stiffened hands and chill Clasping the shield they died for to their breast, The golden beauty lingering on them still, They give the glory for eternal rest: And knowing ‘tis another’s higher will, They take Death’s hand, and smiling deem it best. [page 11]
MY DREAM.
‘TIS a night of dreams, and my weary eyes Watch each frail form of the Spirit Land Pass through the gloom, a mystic band: And one is born as another dies; While the night is full of their phantom cries As the hour-glass frees each grain of sand; And one by one their white arms rise In grave salute to my soul’s command. I scan them all for my own fond dream, Till I see her face and the dark eyes gleam. Lo! sudden my heart breaks into song, For she has come to my waiting long, And fairer than day the night doth seem. [page 12]
AT NIGHT.
MOONLIGHT over the sea! oh, the infinite peace and the calm, The wash of the murmuring flow that gives to the heart-weary balm. The silvery path of the moon and the grace of a drifting sail, A night such as this full of peace; and surely my heart shall not fail. The dip of the sea-bird’s wing as it speeds on its unknown way From the gates of the rosy East to the verge of the dying day; On, on, in its eager haste, with neither rest nor sleeping, Still on, when over the water the moonlight comes softly creeping; And then in the midst of the shadows the bird has settled to rest On a rock that in solitary grandeur is facing the darkening West. [page 13] And so when Life’s journey is over, at last! at last! May it be when the daytime has faded, and the sunset hour has passed, And only the peace of the moonlight is shedding its glory afar; While on high, gazing tenderly earthward, is ever the evening star. And just as to-night, a bird shall flit o’er the silvery way, A moment outlined and then lost in the midst of the shadowy grey. [page 14]
AN HOUR OF PEACE.
THERE is an hour when shades of night Steal over earth and sea, Not yet to bring the hour of rest, But fraught with memory; For with the whisper from the hills You come once more, dear heart; All time slips back, and stealthily The chains of thraldom part. Then am I free to clasp again The form I loved of old, The smile-wreathed lips are freed from pain, The sunlight gleams with gold. [page 15]
A REVERIE.
PEACE to thy slumbers! the Queen of the Night Wafts thee a dream from her infinite height! The breath of the midnight is still on thy brow, And away on the wings of a dream-bird art thou. Away and away, through measureless space, I track thee anon by the smile on thy face; While ever and ever the voice of the sea Flows through thy dreamland a glad memory. [page 16]
THE SONG OF NIGHT.
O’ER the lovely realms of daylight Comes the night all robed in shadow, Stealing softly through the twilight, Over field and over meadow. One by one the stars are peeping In the vast blue dome above, And the great pale moon is rising To its nightly work of love. Softly shining on the river, Making it a trail of light, As it wends through marsh and woodland Or adown some rocky height. And a whisper, sweet and holy Spreads throughout the balmy air, As though Nature, tired and weary, Chants aloud her evening prayer. [page 17]
THE FUTURE.
UNFALTERING, I place my hand Within the clasp of thine, The future that we two have planned, I make more truly mine; And softly falls each golden sand From out the glass of Time. If there are tear-drops in my eyes, No pain is in my heart, The past has gone, and joys arise To bid the night depart. And swiftly each moment flies A love-dream to impart. All that I ask throughout the years Is that our love may last, Then can we easier cope with fears That pain and sorrow cast, And sooner dry misfortune’s tears, If but our love is fast. [page 18] And if in the gloom of sorrow’s night, I turn for help to thee, Strong be thy hand to hold the light, Enabling me to see; For in the doing of the right True happiness shall be. And if, perchance, thy feet shall stray Into the shade of ill, Quick be my hand to point the way, And steadfast my good-will To lead thee back. And thus we may The power of light instill. Through light and shade, through joy and pain, Let us together move; Sharing alike earth’s loss and gain, Love’s loyalty we prove; Trust in each other, and attain The fullest joy of love. [page 19]
TELL ME, O NIGHT!
TELL me, O Night, for my soul has said That wisdom dwells with thee; Tell me if ever that soul be dead In the vast Eternity. Tell me if ever the sealed door Is opened to those of earth, Who, tasting knowledge, crave for more That grows from the inner birth. Tell me if e’er the repentant cry From a sinner in his pain Is heard by the God beyond the sky, Or if it is all in vain. Tell me if ever a pitying ear Is moved by the earth-bound woe; Tell me this, and my trust draws near While Heaven has bent so low. Tell me if what is beyond our thought Is nearing us every day, And then, perchance, the haven sought Will appear an open way; [page 20] And the timid life and the wavering soul Shall much the stronger be, For the doors apart reveal the goal, And earth-born eyes may see. Tell me these things, O thou silent Night. With the myriad star-lit eyes, Tell me, for I shall discern the right If thou wilt make me wise. Whisper it ever so low to my heart, And straightway I shall hear; Push just for once the truth-gates apart That the Light of Faith may appear. [page 21]
MEMORY.
ALONE ‘mid the shadows of evening I ponder, While out of the starlight a dreamland I weave, To people with fancies that ever grow fonder, And somehow my heart has forgotten to grieve. Closer they press, the sweet dreams of my childhood, Crude as they are, yet so beautiful still, Gently I gather, then, flowers of my wildwood, Bend them and twist to my indolent will. Over the skies which of late have been stormy, Fair moonbeams are creeping, and in the soft light The scenes I so loved are passing before me, A brief hour of triumph that lives in the night. Out of the sea waves dim voices are speaking, Lost to the world, yet alive to my heart, From the deep shadows in vain are they seeking A past that has played forever its part. When all-impatient, I fain would be rending The veil that obscures and yet darkens my sight, One whom I loved from the dreamland is bending, And points me the way that I know to be right. [page 22]
LEAVES.
THE withered leaves of red and brown Fall from the trees, Softly, sadly fluttering down, Stirred by the breeze. Tenderly moved by the zephyr’s breath As it goes by, Mourning to see their early death, It breathes a sigh. Yet still they cling with dying touch To the old brown tree, As loath to leave what they love so much; Sad to be free. And soon the outstretched arms of brown Will be quite bare, Till Winter comes with snowy crown, And lingers there. Then Autumn with her store of gold Must flee away, [page 23] And dead leaves rustling in her fold Hear and obey. Oh! loath to let the russet leaves So sadly die, I fain would keep the golden sheaves, Nor question, Why? [page 24]
A GIFT.
THO’ far away, I shall be near To thee in thought, And treasure still the memory dear Thy love has wrought. What tho’ the skies are bright above? The clouds will rise, And mar the dreamy day of love, Which gone, we prize. I give thee at this last fond hour In which we part, The best of gifts within my power, A loving heart. [page 25]
EARTH’S MYSTERIES.
EARTH’S mysteries around us lie, The puzzling where, the whence, the why; They crowd the world, they block the way That leads us onward to the day In mystic revelry. The skies above are deep and dark, And mortals bear the bitter mark That ages gone belonged to Cain, The symbol of eternal pain, Unending misery. Lift up the clouds, oh, Arm of Light! Reject the wrong, renew the right, That long ago was given to man Before the reign of sin began, And truth was free. [page 26]
THE TEMPTER.
OH! eyes so wildly staring back from yon glass to-night, Is this the prayer you carry to a soul bereft of light? “Break from the bonds of sorrow—speed to the Great Unknown; What matters now the verdict to a heart so long alone? “For the light of love has faded, the world is bleak and dark, And a heart’s last hope lies strangled where sin has set its mark.” Oh! heart so strongly pleading for the rest that will not come, Thy longing is the greater that the broken chords are dumb. And the breath of by-gone gladness can stir them nevermore. “Oh, enter then the closèd, withal the unlatched door. [page 27] “What! shrinking from the shadow of the drooping wings of sin? ‘Tis folly to be vanquished by the thoughts of ‘might have been.’ “Choose, then—the bitter present with its heavy bond of woe— Or the sleep of a phantom future that thy soul may never know; “Sleep that is still and dreamless, as the unlit midnight sky, With naught to wake thy slumber: It is so hard to die? “Choose, then—the lifted dream-cup is close to thy trembling lips, See, from thy shaking body the chain of thraldom slips! “Quick, for the time of choosing is already on the wane; Why hesitate, oh, mortal, ‘twixt the freedom and the pain?” “Tempt me not, oh, tempter,” “The coward’s words are these: Still hesitant? Thou hast but thy erring self to please.” [page 28] “I choose at last, not freedom, through forbidden, unlatched door; So plead no longer, tempter, I will not hear these more. “I choose the present rather, e’entho’ fraught with misery, For only death unsought can set the captive free. “Plead then no more, for strengthened I lift again my cross, And even in the stooping I know ‘tis not my loss; “For the heavens are gently lighting the upward-leading road, While the bonds of pain are loosened from the soul’s o’er-heavy load.” [page 29]
THE PASSING OF THE YEAR.
SILENT and sad the Old Year lay, with the snow upon his hair, And the brow of the passing monarch was furrowed with lines of care: His eyes were dim with a sorrow born of the days gone by, And the pallid lips were open to breathe a passing sigh. In his right hand lay the blessings that had lived in his own short life, And the other grasped the sorrows born of his sin and strife. From his right there came a radiance that lit the deepening gloom, But the left was hid in darkness that told of an endless tomb. [page 30] He lingered till the New-born Year came on the wings of day, And stole with his rosy footsteps to where the Old Year lay, To seal with lips of carmine the faded, sightless eyes, Then up from the cold, grey death-bed a new-born king to rise. [page 31]
UNANSWERED.
TREMBLING, I lift the Future’s veil, And watch her eyes, Cold, dark, mysterious, as the dale Ere morning’s rise. No token on her still white face Of life or love; No lifted finger can I trace, Pointing above. Is there no promise of a better life, Love everywhere? With not a sign of hate or strife, Nor hint of care? Tell me, O dumb and mystic fate, May we yet stay With those we love, beyond the gate That bars the way? Or is the Afterward all dark? The path all lone. [page 32] With none to help, and naught to mark Save one white stone? No word comes to my earnest prayer, No “yea” or “nay” And blind I wander here and there Nor know my way. [page 33]
A VICTORY.
A SOUL stood trembling at the Border Gate That leads beyond, where Good and Evil wait; And he was troubled, for the passing life Knew less of Good than bitterness and strife. Then wearied, pained, the wandering spirit fell Before the gate which leads to heaven or hell; When lo! upon the dimmed and fading eyes A sudden darkness fell; he struggled to arise, But great and gloomy wings beat on the fearful soul, And looking up in terror he watched the fiend’s eyes roll. He felt the eager grasp, and heard a wild voice say: “Mine, mine, and only mine forever and for aye.” The lips of the pilgrim faltered, “Then tell me who art thou?” And the fiend’s voice made answer, “Methought I saw ye bow To the dusky form of Evil and kiss her lavish hand: Perchance thou hast forgotten the heedless merry band?” The soul was grave and silent; but in aching pain he thought Of the resting-place he longed for, the prize that he had sought, [page 34] And he prayed as he had never in the dead and by-gone days, Till fainter grew the fiend’s voice, and dimmer was its gaze; And out of the gloom and darkness a white-robed figure grew, Which shone with a heavenly radiance and the pilgrim nearer drew. As he stood in the golden glory the black robes turned to white, And a star fell on his forehead as he passed from dusk to light. [page 35]
LOVE DIVINE.
IF SORROW should come in her garment of ill, And close to the border thy life-cup should fill, Dear heart, do not quail: There’s One who is watching beyond the star-shine, As immortal love is to human, divine, This love cannot fail. Whatever thy pleasure, whatever thy woe This love is steadfast, and ever is so Through sunlight and shade. If they whom you trusted have false been to you The light of this love will pilot you through The darkening glade. Though friends may desert you, though clouds gather fast Forever and ever this great love shall last Both for you and for me. Like unto the love of a parent for a child, Only a thousand times greater, more pure, undefiled, This love is for thee. [page 36]
THE SUICIDE’S PLEA.
Written on the tragic death of a young man, who blew his brains out while gazing in a mirror.
O HEART! the wild plea that you treasure to-night Is fraught with a frantic despair, And the lips fail to utter what, far from the right Your feverish throbbing will dare. What is the prayer that the eyes carry out To the eyes that gaze back from the glass? ‘Tis plainly read, but a lingering doubt Is barring the thoughts as they pass. Oh, plead then no more with a world-weary heart That earth’s sorrows have broken in twain; The chords all lie mute, for wrench them apart, How can they vibrate again? [page 37]
WHEREFORE.
FEEBLY I strive to pierce the clinging mist That envelops me; Bound as I am and fettered, hand and wrist, So long I to be free. Loudly I cry to the great and dim Unseen With pain-drawn breath, Through all the years no harvest can I glean Save promises of Death. They say that Faith will lead us to our goal; The blind point out the way In which is lost so many a wandering soul How can this be, oh, say? Thus must I question till the earth-bonds break At touch of finite hands, And questioning still my faltering way I make Amid the silent bands. Yet in the faces that have naught of speech The fervent answer lies, That all through life was far beyond my reach Now am I doubly wise? [page 38] There is a God; no question should there be; A God of life and love; Oh! argue not, blind as thou art, yet see The God of all, above. So would I think, but a questioning thought Is clamoring still— Would He allow earth’s misery wrought And countenance such ill? If he were just, or kind, or good, How could this be? Answer: I cannot if I would; My eyes refuse to see. Yet better that I am so blind, If, having sight, The unseen way I fail to find In striving after light. So let it be: no longer now The darkness palls; Obediently my head I bow Within life’s thralls. [page 39]
THE ROLL OF YEARS.
THE years roll on; alike in weal and woe, Freighted with burdens of much unanswered prayer, And souls that perish with earth’s weight of care; All shall go forth,—blessed and unblessed they go, As some vast river in its sweeping tidal flow That rushes madly on, it knows not whence or where, Nor in its seething hurry reckons if it bear Those of the mighty—or the quite as mighty low. So will it be until the ages past Loom in the shadows of dim Eternity: Then shall the evil from the good be cast, The right and unright from the “yet to be,” The bands be loosened from the great amassed, And the captive and the wanderer both go free. [page 40]
REST.
THE gold of the sunset faded Into the paling West As a voice came o’er the waters, “Rest to the weary, rest!” And the dusky shadows mingled With the light of a dying day, O’er the blood-red lips of sunset There stole a pallor grey. White wings in the mellow twilight Lay on the rising swell, And the murmur spread and echoed Like the peal of some fairy bell. Again and again it floated Far over the weary world, “Rest to the many workers! The banner of day is furled.” And my heart was full of gladness, I longed for the resting hour, To lose myself in slumber Beneath an unseen power. [page 41]
THE DAY’S A DREAM.
THE day’s a dream; and the silent dusky night Flies like a shadow across the short-lived gold, Where sunset lay a little while agone, Clasped in the arms of the dead day’s fold. A moment gone—the snow-white wings of birds Flashed in the sunlight of the onward passing day; ‘Tis dead now—and the last faint rosy glow Lingers a moment, then sadly drifts away. Still nearer comes the swiftly-flying form, Shading the beauty of a scarcely by-gone dream. ‘Tis dark now;—yet the first fair evening star Shines in the West with pure and holy gleam. [page 42]
REVERIE.
‘TIS resting-time; a welcome shade Creeps o’er the purple hills, And softly touching weary hearts A sense of peace instills. O tender heart! O loving hands! Be with me once again, Just you and I together, love, When day-time glories wane. When the shadows fall around me, To have you by my side, Oh, then, the past is nearer, dear, The gulf seems not so wide! [page 43]
AN ECHO FROM THE PAST.
FROM the shadows of the past, love, Once again thou com’st to me, Waking all the songs of old, love, Touching chords of memory; And my heart is full of longing For the time when I’ll be free. Closer yet I bid thee come, love. Place thy hand upon my heart, Calm the pulse-beat’s quivering clamor, Echoes of thy love impart, And again I shall be happy When the shades of night depart. [page 44]
RECOMPENSE.
I KNOW not whence it came, this love of mine! Perchance from out some shadow of the past Wherein its warmth once fed the light of thine With flame too eager and too bright to last. For when the gloom that lay all thickly round Closed in—the love-light died away— It folded us in darkness so profound We could not see the once-familiar way. And so we strayed; and as my eyes were blind, I lost you on the border-land of “Doubt”; What tho’ I knew some day that I should find The path again;—you would not point it out. Another, and a stranger, came to me, And from the tireless working of his skill The film has left my sight, so that I see The future fair;—the past lies cold and still. [page 45]
A SEA SONG.
DEEP in the sea a memory lies Asleep, asleep, with fast-closed eyes; It will not wake, Save when the storm-waves lash the beach, And circling birds with piercing screech Mad turmoil make. Then—then it stirs from its silent sleep, And its eyes gaze upward through the deep To mine above, For this memory wakes when a storm is nigh To strike in my heart—I know not why— Lost chords of love. And back and back through the roll of years, I see a face that is marred with tears And once loved well; The waves have smoothed the brow of pain. Why the deep reproach should yet remain I cannot tell. Through summer’s heat and winter’s blast, As long as a storm on the sea doth last, That face I see; [page 46] The eyes are blurred and the woe is there, While the sea-weeds play with the flowing hair Of a memory. . . . . . . . . . . They who once loved are far away, Beyond the limits of the day, And I alone Peer through the watches of the night For the pale rays of morning light, Till day has grown. [page 47]
FOREVER.
ALL unknown, the future lying Lifts its languid eyes to me, And the lips that slowly widen Speak again, dear love, of thee Tho’ the past has fled forever, Yet our love shall ever be. Far, oh, far away, thou’rt sleeping In a sport I do not know. Yet my love, instead of dying, Ever seems in strength to grow; And I know ‘tis not forgotten That my love was ever so. Strong, far stronger than my being, To the heart that beats for thee; For the faith is not the lesser When the eyesight fails to see, And beyond, thy spirit seeking Speaks again of love to me. [page 48]
A SONG OF THE SEA.
THE gull’s white wing and the water’s swing With the sobbing ebb and flow, All speak of a day that has passed away With its hours of joy and woe. And the tears will rise to my longing eyes For the day that I loved so well; The aching heart is so far apart From the tale that the waters tell. Oh! to sail away on the silvery grey Of a sea that I do not know, Where the gull’s white wing and the water’s swing No longer speak of woe. Where the dancing gleam of sunlit stream Means happiness to me, And the sweet, low word of a song unheard That I only dreamt to be. Rings from the rocks, and straightway knocks At the heart that opens wide. [page 49] And the golden light breaks on my sight For all time to abide. And the old, old sea has long ceased to be, With its murmuring of pain, For I stand once more where in dreams before I lived, and I love again. [page 50]
EVERALD.
OH! frail little life, on my heart at rest, Thou of all treasures art ever the best And the dearest of all. The exquisite joy that has risen in thee, The love that is stronger than life is in me, Awake at thy call. Oh! dream on, my little one, watch I shall keep Naught shall disturb thine innocent sleep— Dream, softly dream. The shadows creep closer, the night hour is nigh, The white-wingèd birds more lazily fly Athwart the gleam. And while thou art sleeping, I’ll build in the air A castle that’s furnished with visions so fair, And all waiting for thee; For queen thou art e’er of my heart and my thought, And the swift-glowing dreams with love’s shuttle are wrought From the dim “to be.” [page 51] And the dreams that I dream are all golden and bright, For I weave in the sunbeams, and cast out the night With its shadowy pain. I gather the sweetest of life’s fragrant flowers, And festooned high on the dream-castle walls, They may wither in vain. [page 52]
SLEEP ON.
SLEEP on, tired heart, the evening shades Are full of peace to thee; Live in thy dream until it fades, For it must cease to be. Yet while it lasts, the passing hours Are traced in threads of gold; Live on amid the wondrous flowers, Enriched a thousand fold. The joys thy earth-life cannot give For this brief space are thine; Sleep, then and in thy dream-life live, Awhile thou need’st not pine. Sleep, for the ills of daytime Have drifted far away, Thy dreamland barque is moving To the sweetest, softest lay. The hand of Sleep is on thy brow, And pain-lines quickly fade, The lips smile from the heart-depths now, For life’s regret is stayed. [page 53] Now all thy hopes seem truth at last, One well-loved waits for thee With hand outheld to guide thee past The dream-bars of the sea. Sleep on until the shafts of day Pierce through the veil of sleep, Rest till thy dreamland fades away Into thy memory’s keep. Sleep, for the ills of daytime Have drifted far away, Thy dreamland barque is moving To the sweetest, softest lay. [page 54]
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